Friday, January 28, 2005
I Guess It's Going Around
Well I've heard that some nasty little cold bug is going around and Meg has had something for about 2 weeks now. At first I thought it was just because she is teething but now Elise and I are sick with something as well. I was thinking that my allergies were playing up again because i was having the normal allergy stuff. Then I started running a pretty high fever.
Thursday, January 13, 2005
Teenagers!
Well we are going through the teenager phase! She is 17 and now that we have passed her one year anniversary here with us the "honeymoon" phase is OVER!
She is rebelling in her own quiet way. She is giving the dirty looks, the pouting when given constructive critiquing, and writing things about me in her diary... Yes I have broken the carnal rule of parenthood. I read her diary. I knew she was keeping things from me and I couldn't seem to coax it out of her so I read it..
I was right she was keeping something from me, she thinks she is in love with my brother... First of all she is not biologically related to him and is apparently not seeing me as her mother so she doesn't see any reason why they can't have a relationship. Second of all he is the only guy other than Ernie(her brother, my husband) to give her the kind of attention she thinks she wants from a male, in the has year. She is shy and more into chatting with men twice her age online ( which I put a stop too).
She is seeing me as her enemy and I'm not sure why... Other than the fact that she made the comment that I was a stupid f***ing B***H and that I needed to keep my F***ing mouth shut when it came to talking to her about men and weight.. And that I had no room to discuss loosing weight with her because I am a fat cow. Well I'm not thin but I will say this... She is the one who asked me to help her loose weight and I have been the one to encourage her to exercise and then she gets all mad at me because I want her to be resposible for her own actions.
She called me all this because We had told her that she need to learn how to use our public transportation system here in the city. She was mad because I admitted that I had never used it before, even though I have only lived here for 2 1/2 years and Have always driven myself, but when you're 17 and don't drive and want to go places it doesn't hurt you to learn how to ride a bus.
I am also afraid she may be taking advise about things from someone I don't really trust to give advise to her. I know this person and I just can't bring myself to ask them not to be giving Elise advise in the area of sex and dating, or even, drinking and drugs. I just know that at one time she told me everything and it was great. She trusted me and I could believe her but I just don't believe her like I used to ... I know she has lied to me and eventhough she says that she is telling me the truth about some other things I know she isn't ...
And there are so many other things that I don't even know where to begin... Like laziness, sarcasm, being hateful, mood swings. The list goes on!!!
I know that this is probably me just trying not to turn out like my mom, but I feel like I'm going crazy... I feel like this is affecting my marriage, he won't deal with her. He leaves it to me until I tell him if he doesn't say something I'm just going to take a belt to her and get it over with ... Then he will talk to her and then she is resentful toward me. She tells me she loves me and for the last 8 months I was mommy, but now I'm just Gidgit again and well I just really don't know what to do....
Any advise???? I need prayers, I can't loose my family..
She is rebelling in her own quiet way. She is giving the dirty looks, the pouting when given constructive critiquing, and writing things about me in her diary... Yes I have broken the carnal rule of parenthood. I read her diary. I knew she was keeping things from me and I couldn't seem to coax it out of her so I read it..
I was right she was keeping something from me, she thinks she is in love with my brother... First of all she is not biologically related to him and is apparently not seeing me as her mother so she doesn't see any reason why they can't have a relationship. Second of all he is the only guy other than Ernie(her brother, my husband) to give her the kind of attention she thinks she wants from a male, in the has year. She is shy and more into chatting with men twice her age online ( which I put a stop too).
She is seeing me as her enemy and I'm not sure why... Other than the fact that she made the comment that I was a stupid f***ing B***H and that I needed to keep my F***ing mouth shut when it came to talking to her about men and weight.. And that I had no room to discuss loosing weight with her because I am a fat cow. Well I'm not thin but I will say this... She is the one who asked me to help her loose weight and I have been the one to encourage her to exercise and then she gets all mad at me because I want her to be resposible for her own actions.
She called me all this because We had told her that she need to learn how to use our public transportation system here in the city. She was mad because I admitted that I had never used it before, even though I have only lived here for 2 1/2 years and Have always driven myself, but when you're 17 and don't drive and want to go places it doesn't hurt you to learn how to ride a bus.
I am also afraid she may be taking advise about things from someone I don't really trust to give advise to her. I know this person and I just can't bring myself to ask them not to be giving Elise advise in the area of sex and dating, or even, drinking and drugs. I just know that at one time she told me everything and it was great. She trusted me and I could believe her but I just don't believe her like I used to ... I know she has lied to me and eventhough she says that she is telling me the truth about some other things I know she isn't ...
And there are so many other things that I don't even know where to begin... Like laziness, sarcasm, being hateful, mood swings. The list goes on!!!
I know that this is probably me just trying not to turn out like my mom, but I feel like I'm going crazy... I feel like this is affecting my marriage, he won't deal with her. He leaves it to me until I tell him if he doesn't say something I'm just going to take a belt to her and get it over with ... Then he will talk to her and then she is resentful toward me. She tells me she loves me and for the last 8 months I was mommy, but now I'm just Gidgit again and well I just really don't know what to do....
Any advise???? I need prayers, I can't loose my family..
Saturday, January 08, 2005
These thing happen in three's...
So last night we were at Arby's eating dinner and I got a call from my Grandmother. My cousin Anita died Friday morning. She is actually my Grandmothers niece and she is older than my Grandma but I have always been really close to her and her husband Chet. So naturally I was upset and told Ernie to take me home.
Well I had to tell my mom because she is spending the weekend here with us and my Grandma hadn't been able to get in touch with her.
Then last night we get a call from Ernie's Aunt telling us that the house his mother was living in with some other people has burned to the ground and she lost everything. The Red Cross is putting her up in a motel for the weekend and they gave her a gift card to Wal-Mart to get some clothes and things she will need.
So then this morning we get another phone call telling us that when Anita passed away yesterday morning her husband Chet was also slipping away. Chet passed away last night to be with his beloved Anita in the arms of Jesus.
This has been a really trying day or so. I will miss them terribly but they had both been in very poor health and he had even been in a nursing home for almost 5 years. I know that they are not suffering anymore and that I will see them again in Heaven! I know that they were Christians and that they had both Accepted Jesus so I will see them again.
Well I guess I should stop rambling. I have to find a scripture I can put in the card I am sending the Chet and Anita's 4 children. My 3rd cousins and their families. I will probably not be able to attend the funeral but my mother and Grandparents are going so they will take my condolences with them. Well May God bless you and keep you and may His light be made to shine upon your face.
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Well I had to tell my mom because she is spending the weekend here with us and my Grandma hadn't been able to get in touch with her.
Then last night we get a call from Ernie's Aunt telling us that the house his mother was living in with some other people has burned to the ground and she lost everything. The Red Cross is putting her up in a motel for the weekend and they gave her a gift card to Wal-Mart to get some clothes and things she will need.
So then this morning we get another phone call telling us that when Anita passed away yesterday morning her husband Chet was also slipping away. Chet passed away last night to be with his beloved Anita in the arms of Jesus.
This has been a really trying day or so. I will miss them terribly but they had both been in very poor health and he had even been in a nursing home for almost 5 years. I know that they are not suffering anymore and that I will see them again in Heaven! I know that they were Christians and that they had both Accepted Jesus so I will see them again.
Well I guess I should stop rambling. I have to find a scripture I can put in the card I am sending the Chet and Anita's 4 children. My 3rd cousins and their families. I will probably not be able to attend the funeral but my mother and Grandparents are going so they will take my condolences with them. Well May God bless you and keep you and may His light be made to shine upon your face.
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