Holiday Hullaballoo!

I hope everyone had a wonderful Chirstmas! Mine went well .... This was Elise's first Christmas with us and I wanted it to be special! We visited lots of family and Ernie and I tried to get her a couple of pracitcal but nice gifts.... We don't believe extravagance is necessary.

So we wound up opening gifts on the 23rd, 24th, and 25th. So we got to have three days of Christmas. On Christmas day we went to my dad's and Elise got to meet my Uncle Buck, and My brothers and my Sisters-in-law. She also got to meet my Neices and Nephew.
We brought my neice Jessica home with us and have been having a good time spending time with her.
The little girls that I keep have been sick.. And on top of that my allergies have been working overtime since Christmas day at dad's ( they all smoke and I'm allergic).

Well I pray that you will have a Blessed New Year and may it be prosperous as well.

God Bless you!

I have a prayer request for you

My best friends little boy Jacob had surgery this morning to fix a broken arm. He is 3 and is in a severe amount of pain..
Please pray for no more pain for this little guy. He recieved two pins in his right wrist and will have to be in a cast for a minimum of 6 weeks.

Otherwise the day is going well... the girls are down for a nap and I've been dinking around online... I need to get some work done but can't seem to get motivated today..

I've been reading alot of other blogs and have found many other women in my situation.. It is kind of comforting to know I'm not alone.
I hope to add some of the places I've been going to my little blog to share with you..

Oh! MERRY CHIRSTMAS!!!!
I PRAY YOU HAVE A BLESSED CHRISTMAS SEASON AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

GOD BLESS YOU!

I knew it had to get better!

I just new it had to be better than it was last week...
I was so stressed out and all that I just couldn't sleep. I still haven't slept more than probably 3 hours a night. I just don't seem to be sleepy or maybe it is that I get so tired that I can't sleep.

With three kids in the house during the week and two of those being under 2 years old ...........well ......naptime for the little ones is a welcome time!

I have been praying about all the things happening in my life, and started working with my book again..

So I printed up some more scripture to put around the house. I do this alot.. I have diffrent scripture verses printed and hanging aroud the house. I printed more today about God's Promises to barren women and on freedom from fear!

Here is a list of some of the verses so you can use any you might want.
Deuteronomy 7:13-15
1 Samuel 1:27
Judges 13:2,3, 24
Genesis 25:21
Genesis 29:31
Genesis 30:1,22,23
Genesis 11:30; 18:10-11; 21:1-2
Proverbs 3:24
Psalm 34:4
2 Thessalonians 1:7
2 Corinthians 10:5

Maybe you will find something that will help you...
May God bless you and keep you..
I better go I took a sleeping pill and am going to bed So I can get up early tomorrow.

Well this week........

Well this week has hit my Top 10 list of "if it can go wrong it will go wrong" weeks!

Monday started it off. Well let me back up a bit..... I have been babysitting for a friend from Church who has two of the cutest little girls... Okay, so Monday the girls got here and things were going okay.
I got Megan down for her morning nap and Sarah as usual didn't want to "rest". I use the term rest because if I tell her it is Nap time she freaks out - What a smart cookie-so I say it's time to take a rest! Well time came to pick up Holly Elise from school so I load the little ones in the van and we take off.
I was trying to get something to work on my cell phone and it kept asking me for a PUK code, which means absoultley nothing to me.
Then it locked itself up and wouldn't let me use it!

On the way home from the school , the van started to smell funny. So we were like a quarter of a mile from the house I noticed that it was starting to smoke... as soon as i pulled into the driveway, I turned it off and poped the hood. I jumped out and lifted the hood to find FIRE spitting out at me!
I yelled at Holly to get the girls out of the van and run next door and ask if they had a fire extinguisher*. Of course she didn't, but i had a large bottle of water in the van for baby bottles so i doused the fire and we got the girls in the house.
So that was Monday!

The rest of the week wasn't too bad... Megan has been teething and a total fuss budget! I can totally see how some animal eat their young... No offence or anything ! But I now see how my sister can get pot parteum depression so easily. I think I'm getting it and they aren't even my kids!
hahahah!
Today Both the Girls were crabby! I told Elise that I thought megan had PMS,,, she said no she has BMS(baby mood swings)! I thought that was cute!

Okay so if anyone has any suggestions on how to raise a teenager who is well rounded let me know..... I think I might be screwing this one up!
Well enough rambling....
Take care!

Pray my lovely Friends Pray!

Tonight I am writing to ask for your prayers! We have a decission to make and we need God's guidance.
Please pray that God will lead us to the right child or children!
Pray that He will prepare our child or children to become a part of our Forever Family! Pray that the foster parents will be prepared to help our child or children with the transition of coming home.

Also please pray for God to provide our needs when it comes to pre-placement travel and lodging.
We are asking for your prayers because we know we have a great support system in you all!

Thank you for being a loving Family and Extended family!
We love you all!

GREAT NEWS!

Today I got Great News! in exactly two weeks or home-study will be complete! I can't believe it !We have been waiting for what seems like eternity. I am GOIN TO BE A MOMMY! FINALLY! Our homestudy will be going to the child search department and we will pray for a quick and accurate match.

Ernie wants a boy I want a boy and a girl but Only God knows what we will really get.
Well it is getting late and I will write more very soon!

God Bless!

Well Today is NOT a good Day!

I got to work about an hour and a half today. I was Fired this morning! I couldn't believe it! I am so angry. I have really worked hard at this job and I have been there since June. I just couldn't believe that because I forgot to take the deposit to the bank one day that I got fired. I don't know how I 'm going to find another job but I know that God will provide.

I need your prayers! If anyone has any scripture about God's provision please feel free to post them, I need the encouragement!

God Bless you all and have a good weekend.

Her 17th Birthday!

I still can't believe that Holly Elise is 17 today! She is maturing so quickly and she has grown so much since coming to live with us. The thing that I found neat about Elise's birthday being today is that she shares it with my Aunt Margie and My cousin Tyne! Happy Birthday to you All!

I want to tell you a little about how I feel about Miss Elise.

I know that We are just her gaurdians but I have grown so attached to her, I love her as if she were my daughter! I'll tell you another thing, I couldn't ask for a better mother/ daughter relationship. I had asked God for a daughter that I could have an open loving relationship with and He gave me Holly.
Praise God for loving me enough to see the desire of my heart and granting me part of that prayer.
As far as the adoption goes we are still Waiting! I am ready for the phone to ring with the news that we have been matched. It will be a wonderful day!
I have been praying and I feel that our child might be a little 5year old boy who is a loving soul and needs a loving mommy and daddy.

I Thank Jesus that I am going to get the chance to be somebody's mommy!

. "My God shall supply all your (my) need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:19) "But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you (me)" (Matthew 6:33). (Emphasis is mine).

Never again will I confess curses or bad luck, for "Christ hath redeemed us from the curse of the law, being made a curse for us...that the blessing of Abraham might come on the Gentiles through Jesus Christ; that we might receive the promise of the Spirit through faith" (Galatians 3:13-14).

Lovely Time!

Yesterday we had an early birthday party for Holly Elise, she will be 17 on Oct. 16th . We went to my Grandparents house and grilled hamburgers and my Aunt's best friend made Elise the nicest Cake.
She even said she would even make the cake for our placement party and our finalization party.

I can't wait for either! I am still really looking forward to becoming a mother. Ernie and I were talking earlier today about how he wants boys and I want girls. It was rather funny. He thinks boys are easier because they are not as emotional as girls! I told him that God made us more emotional for a reason. Because God needed someone to find compassion and love. With out the emotional sex there would be no men!

It was a fun debate, and we always wind up seeing the path God has put us on.
It has been raining most of the day and we have just enjoyed spending the day together and praying that the Lord will keep my peice of junk little van running until we can come up with the money to get a newer one, or a car. With winter coming on I probably need to get a front wheel drive car so that I don't have to worry about travel in Oklahoma's messed up weather!

I Think About Him/Her all the time.

I think about who my child will be. About how old he or she will be. I wonder if they will love me as easily as I am sure I will love them. To tell you the truth I don't even know who my children are but I already love them so much that I would do anything for them.
I am so excited about being a mother and I can hardly wait to find out who my child(ren) are that it is really not even funny.


Well on an totally unrelated note. Today is my 6th wedding anniversary. Ernie and I spent the night lastnight at Embassy Suites Hotel. It was perfect. We had a nice dinner and enjoyed the alone time. And because I mentioned that it was our anniversary when I reserved the room they upgraded our room for free!

We really had a good time. Checked out at noon and came home to a chattering 16 year old who can't wait to turn 17 on Oct 16th.
We are planning a couple of different things for her birthday and She will enjoy them I am sure.

Well enough for today .... May God continue to bless you and keep you.

Please don't forget to pray for my growing family!


Love, ~me~
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Long Week.....

It has been a really long week for me. I am sure it has been a long week for you too.

 

Today we went to the Tulsa Zoo and met my sister Kristina, her husband Shawn, Tanner my nephew and Rebecca my neice. Kristina is pregnant with Abigail who will be born in November just a few days before her sister Rebecca's 1st birthday.

 

We had a really good time! Tanner could quite possibly be the love of my life. Now that he  is 2 and talking and communicating with us he is an absolute joy.

 

He likes to talk to Aunt Gidgit on the phone and loves to give me kisses!

I so enjoyed getting to play with him today and holding him again.

He only gets to come to see his mommy everyother weekend and we see him even less. So I cherish every minute I get with him.

Well It is getting really late and My brother Styrlin  is here for the night and I have to get up and take him to Drill in the morning . I also have to finish baking muffins for church in the morning.

 

God Bless you and Keep you .... Please don't forget to pray for my child(ren).

 

~Love ya~

Changes

Well I am finally learning more about this whole process and I am trying to make some changes to the blog so please bare with me!

 

Take care,

Gidgit

What a Week!

Well as you can see I have not posted in a week. I have been really busy. My Branch Manager was on vacation this past week and I was in the office on my own. Parts of the week were utterly boring, but others kept me thinking and on my toes. I have discovered that I know more about my job than I realized.

Well Saturday I went shopping with Holly Elise and we did girl stuff! It was fun kind of a mother-daughter thing only I'm just a surrogate mom for now.
Well anywayFriday night Ernie took us to Olive Garden ( only one of my favorite restaurants)! Usually we get GREAT service, but for some reason we got stuck with the worst waiter. He was so slow... we sat at our table for over 20 minutes before he even brought salad and breadstix. We got our appatizer before our salad. That was most certainly a first for me.
Sarah you would have been appaled!

Anyway the food was good as usual, and we came home and watched Dirty Dancing:Havanah Nights! Good movie by the way,and Swayze is in the movie! I really liked it..

We are still trying to get our medical insurance worked out because the last of our paper work is Physicals! All three of us have to have one and they are very expensive with out insurance and we really can not afford them. So please pray that we are able to obtain some medical insurance so that we can have our child home soon.

God Bless you and please check out some of the new scripture I have posted.

Some People!

You know some people are just not real considerate! I love my friends and all but I just don't know why everyone thinks they can live with me!

Do they not realize that we are in the middle of an Adoption here?!
I am so not willing to be helpful right now I am trying to prepare my home for my children! I want my house to be ready! I don't need other people living in my house!

I know it is a good thing to help people in need but who is going to help me when I'm in need?!
I mean I need things for my kids, I need to get some bills paid, I need a new van!
Why do people think that I have "come live with me" written on my forehead!

I know the bible tells us to be kind and loving and giving but, I am so tired of giving and letting people live with me. I just want my house to myself for a few months or even weeks before we have a child(ren) placed with us!

OKay =, okay, I need to stop whining! I am just getting so stressed!

Part of the Process

Well apparently it is part of the process to feel like an emotional blob!
I have been reading "Adoption Is A Family Affair! What Relatives and Friends Must Know" {again}. It really gives insight to the things that hopeful adoptive parents and their achildren go through!

A small Exerpt:
"The unique concept of bringing together the needs and the desires of two sets of parents (most often previously unknown to one another) on behalf of the greater needs of a child is a huge task. no matter whether the birth and adoptive parents will meet one another forge an ongoing relationship or they will choose confidentiality, a great deal of very intimate information will change hands. Far more oftern than not adoption parents will have access to significant medical and social information about their child. They may learn details about family background or social history. They may have access to information about the birthfamily's medical history and mental health problems and learning disabilities. The story occasionally includes difficult details about rape, or incest, or infidelity, or imprisonment, or substance abuse.
This is very private stuff ."

I think I will be posting some exerpts from this book on occasion for all to learn more. After my goal is to educate the Adoption is NOT Second rate!

First Day of School

Well today is Holly Elise's first day of School! She was excited as well as scared. As we walked to the doors I said a little prayer asking God to put angels in around her to protect her, and asked Him to let there be at least ONE other Christian there for her to befriend.

Please Pray for Elise today! She is so terribly shy and she needs to make some friends. The Holy Spirit is noticable on her and I know she will be a good wittness!

As far as the adoption, well..... We turned in some more paper work, now we just have to get our physicals taken care of. We had them last year but if it takes longer than a year you have to renew them.

Well I'm off to work and I'll post more later!
May God richly Bless your day!

Talk About Tears!

I was reading some posts on adoption.com's fourms.. Well it seems many other adoptive families are getting little to no support from their friends and family!

I just Cried! I was always raised that when a child came into a family { no matter how} you celebrated... weither it was #1 or #12 it dosen't matter!

I pray that my family and friends can see beyond the fact that I am not giving birth to my children and will support us in our journey, as well as love and support my children....

I know that some of you that read this site are my family and I want to Thank you for your support as God has given you a right spirit toward adoption!

If you will read down to Getting There I post my favorite scripture you will see why adoption is not "beneath" birth!

God Bless you all and I love you!

WoooooHoooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well it is done! We finished the Home Visit half of the homestudy! It was not quite as scarry as I thought it was going to be! I was really nervous last night and had trouble sleeping.
When I finally got to sleep I had a dream about my children...... I still can't see their little faces but God will fill those in when it is time. Any way, we were in Texas{I know this because I could see the Welcom to Texas sign}, and we were going to meet our children for the first time.
It was Me, Ernie, and Elise, and we were in our van driving into a town, I'm not quite sure what town it was but I'm pretty sure I have never been there before. So as we were driving we came up to a big yellow house.... I'm guessing this is the one they live in .... as we pulled in I felt led by the Holy Spirit to pray for my childrens foster parents. So we paused to pray for them to have peace about letting go of my babies.
When we got inside our children KNEW who we were. I mean it was like God had told them we were their "Forever Family". Then as my little girl ran to hug me I woke up!

Talk about a crazy dream! So tell me what you think ... I really would like an oppinion or two....

I am happy to say that our Home Study should be complete by the first week in November and after that our paperwork will be turned over to the Child search department for placement.

Please pray that everything goes smoothly and all our paperwork is completed in a timely manner. We are praying for actual placement by the first of the new year.

Thank you all for your prayers!

God Bless you all!

Well This is IT!

The time has come....tomorrow Sept. 01,2004 is the HOME VISIT! I have some idea of what to expect simply because the lovely women I have met on the adoption.com message boards have been kind enough to share thier stories with me.

I pray that things go well and we are able to complete the rest of our paper work in a timely manner.

I am really anxious... your prayers are greatly apperciated!
We are praying for a boy and a girl and we have enough room for 3 if that is what God's will for us is.
Well I need to get some laundry finished and go to bed... please feel free to post.

Good night!

FAVORITES!

Well the day's are few in number until our second homestudy interview!
I was putting my adoption journal into my pc when i realized that i had not posted my favorite scripture on my blog so here it is......

Ephesians 1:4-6
"Just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we would be Holy and blameless before Him. In love He predestined us to Adoption, as Sons ( and daughters) through Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the kind intention of His will, to the praise of the glory of His grace, which He freely bestowed on us in the Beloved."

I would love to know your favorite scriptures! feel free to post them!

Home Study Part 2

Well we were supposed to have the second part of our homestudy on Wednesday. Unfortunatly I have been so busy that we had to push it back to this comming wednesday. September 1, 2004, I am excited and ready to get it done and over with. Monday I have to go finish some paper work to give our Case worker from the Agency.
We have just a few things that still need to be done. I am trying to get on at a radio station as I have an education in Broadcasting and need to put it to use.

Well tomorrow is Sunday and we are going to church, Elise hates to get up and I have to fix her hair...... speaking of hair...... for those of you who are caucasian parents and are thinking of having AA or Biracial children, have some one teach you how to fix their hair!!!! Elise's hair was hard to learn about at first but now I am getting pretty good at it and she is 16 ! I had to teach her how to fix it!!!! Funny huh?

Good night and God bless you all!

Along the Journey

Today we are preparing to have the home interview portion of our Home Study. We are rearranging our bedroom tonight and will be getting the spare(child's) room tomorrow. I can't wait until we know how many and what sex the children are so we can decorate the rooms!

Not to much to say right now but will post more soon!

May God continue to Bless all who visit!

The First Part of Our Journey.

The first part of our journey began in October 2003. We attend parenting classes, got physicals, and began gathering a load of paper work.

After we notified our families, found that we have a great support system. We have had a few trials over the last year that post poned the process for about 8 months. We resumed doing our paperwork this July and Today August 18, 2004 we did the office interview part of our Homestudy.

I will be including a portion on "US" the Graham's and Links to other places I like to go as well as other blog's.


please feel free to post your comments!