Rest In Peace Nana Juanita

My husbands step mother Juanita passed away last night. I was not expecting it to be this week and am very sad for my husbands family's loss. I am however extremely disappointed at the behaviour in which some of his cousins have displayed. Ernie's loss was as I said his step mother, so his mother's side did not know her. However they could at LEAST express some sympathy! I mean after all he expressed concern for an uncle "by marriage" who has been in and out of the hospital. I realize that people all deal with their own issues but as a family there should be some symbolance of support no matter what "side" the death or illness is on!

Now I have to figure out how I'm going to keep NikiRhe's Nana Juanita a memory for her. She is so little and I don't know how she will remember her Nana but I'm going to try to help her have some memory of her, even if it's just stories.

Living and Dying

In the midst of living and doing all we can to make our lives better we are dealing with death. Most know that my husband's step-mother has been battling stage 4 colon cancer. Her first round of chemo lasted almost 1 year and did not work. The doctors informed my father in law a few weeks ago that there were no more treatment options for her at this point. Her cancer has spread to almost all of her organs and she has accepted that she is going to die. Today we were informed that the doctor at her long term care facility told my father in law she may not live a week.

I'm trying to build my business and care for my family and figure out how to help my father in law deal with loosing his wife. My hubby is worried about his dad and I can totally understand that.

Well to top it all off.. we have our 18 year old niece flying in from New Hampshire on Tuesday the 26th. MY step-mom is having hip replacement surgery on the following Tuesday and I have meetings every Tuesday night at 7! I mean I CAN miss these meetings anytime i need too i am just very passionate about my career!

I will do what has to be done because that is who I am. I will lean on my heavenly Father to get us through all this so that we will be stronger as a family.

I Really Dislike Feeling Bad on a Saturday

This is usually the time when we hang out as a family. We spend time doing outdoor things. Today it is supposed to be 91 and I'm feeling bad! UGH! I'd love to take my little one to the park or to the company Easter Egg Hunt with my step mom. I need to get her an Easter basket but with feeling bad today I just don't know. The EE hunt is from 1-3pm and that the hottest part of the day usually.

Well the weather is supposed to be super nice today so I'm going to do all I can to feel better so I can take my baby girl outside.

Going Back to Work...

Today for the first time in about 18 months I'm going to a business meeting. I never wanted to be a career mom. I wanted to be a full time wife and mother and I have been since the day my princess was born. I am however a Licensed Life and Health insurance agent. I LOVED my job before I was laid off. I do want to be involved with a company who's goal is to help the average person plan for their future. I feel like I'm very good at what I do and I know how to talk to families about planning for the future and the future of their families.

So, this afternoon I'm going to a meeting with a company to see if they are something I'd like to be associated with. If not I will work on doing this all on my own from the comfort of my home. I love the idea of working form home because I can still be that full-time wife and mom as well as contribute to the family finances.

I'm excited and a little nervous all at the same time. :o) I'm ready to be helping my husband with the financial portion of our family and I want to build my daughters college fund. I'm also looking forward to building our savings back up.

Lord, be with me today, help me to ask the right questions, help me to, listen and learn and help me to be the best I can be. In Jesus name, Amen.

Today was so much fun....

I babysat for an old friend today and took Niki with me. She had so much fun playing with Sarah and Megan and Richard Lee and Luke! Those five together can sure keep a momma busy! Totally made me rethink the wanting to have 6 to 12 kids of my own! LOL 

I told Ernie today that 2 would do for me. I think Niki is going to need a younger sibling in due time. She loves having playmates and I can't imagine having an ONLY child. I guess that is because I have 5 younger brothers and sisters. Even though I'm 7 to 12 years older than all of my siblings I am glad I have them. 

Hopefully G*d will bless us with at least one more. 

Well after our full day I think I'm going to attempt to get some sleep. I still have to carry my sleeping Princess up the stairs and turn in myself. 

Good night and be blessed! 

~G~