Concert Tomorrow

Well tomorrow night we are going to Tulsa to the Maybee Center to see the Gaither Homecoming Tour. We don't like them as much as my Grandparents but they bought the tickets and we get to get out of the house for free!

OY! I have been working on letting go of some mixed emotions about Elise. She is living with my mother and going to Graduate in May. I am proud of her but she is showing very little interest in us as her family. She tells me that she loves me but has only called me one time and is going to have to realize that I am moving on.

I will always love her but I can no longer allow her to play games with me.

I have a good relationship with my mother and I don't want to have to be mean to her but I don't feel close to her and part of me never does want that again because she betrayed me.
I guess that is what Betrayal does to a person.

well it is getting late and i have to get up early and take my grandmother to the salon.
God Bless! ~G~

Learning Where You Came From Can Be Fun....

Today, me, my Grandmother and my Aunt LaDonna went to Durant, Oklahoma to visit our cousins on my Grandmothers side. The cousin we visited is our family historian and we had a great time learning all the things we didn't know before about our family like my Grandmother's Grandmother is a cousin to Cole Younger of the Younger Gang. We knew we were related but were unsure of exactly how. I am still trying to find the common link but I know that I will eventually find it!

There are twists and turns to the story and it is very cool to find out that our family history is quite sordid as well as torid. Full of love affairs, outlaws and prostitutes.

My Grandma and I joked about writing a book all about our soap opera family story.
Some day when I get the chance to put it all together I'll publish it online. it wil make good reading.

well i've had a very long day and I have to get up early.. so off I go to bed now.

God Bless !
~G~

The World according to Jaci

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So There you have it folks the world according to 17 mo. old Jaci (pronounced jaycee).
She is the cutest thing ever! I am really loving my job and we are going to be out and about today so it will be fun. I am even getting off early today!

and I don't have to work tomorrow yet i'm still getting paid! I'm telling you this is gonna work out just fine.

well i've got to get the kiddo's some breakfast... i'll post again soon!

God Bless,
~G~

Today is my first day....

I start my new position as Nanny today! I am excited I have always loved working with children and I know that this will work out. The girls are really sweet and they will probably still be asleep when I get there so I won't have to mess with a whole lot when I get there.

welll i'll post more tonight after my day is over to let you know how things went.
Have a Blessed day!

~G~

Call me The Nanny.....

I interviewed for a nanny position today! I pray that they decide to have me on because I think it will be a perfect position for me. I will be able to make Ernie dinner on the two nights a week he he work early. I'll be able to run the few little errands I need to run and I'll be able to take my grandmother to the doctor if and when she needs to go.

The girls are 4 and 16mos. and they have a big brother who is 10. I'll be there from about 7:45am to somewhere between 2-5... The father is a plumber by trade and sometimes is able to be off work around 2pm. I would not have to loose any money on those days as they have agreed on a flat fee. Which I am very agreeable with.

well any way I did start making my cross necklaces and it will take me a few more tries to get it down pat but they are coming along. Today Ernie and I ran across another Certified Producer for Disciples Cross at Wal-Mart. She said her's are selling quite well! That put a spring in my step ast I have been praying that God allowing me to make the right decissions.

Well it is getting really late and I honestly need to get to bed and get some sleep. I am going to work on getting back on track with my FLYLady tomorrow as I have really slacked off.
I know I can do anything for 15min. at a time!

God Bless you ...!!! Please keep praying for us as we work with the youth group and as we Wait for the phone call on a match!

~G~

My new thing....

I received my starter kit for Disciples Cross today! I am really excited to get started. We have really been praying about this and I think God will bless this oportunity. Please check out the links for Disciples Cross I have posted here on my blog.. it will help me earn for my friends and family to visit them via my links.

I am waiting for a call from my grandfathers boss at the Hospice. She is looking for a Nanny and I am hoping she calls, I would love to take care of kids again. I'm praying that God will open her heart to be open to lettting me to take care of her kids at my house that is my goal as I would really rather be at home so I can cook dinner for Ernie.

I'll just keep praying about and rely on my Jesus to work it all out!

well it is getting late so I better go... I'll post again soon!

God Bless!
~G~

Getting ready for working at home

I am going to start working from home soon...Lord willing. I am looking forward to it so very much! I really miss being at home and my house really needs some full time attention. I have never been the best house keeper but I know that I can keep our home a restful haven for my family if I am able to be here.

I like my job but they are not wanting to allow me to be at church. i really feel i need to devote more time to God and my family.

well i'm going to try to get some house work done so i'll get off here...

God Bless you!
~G~

Not Your Everyday......

Okay so today I woke up with the intention of going to take my Grandmother and Aunt to Wal-Mart. Ernie and I did our bible study, showered and dressed and made our way over. When we got there Grandma and Aunt Ruby were both feeling under the weather. So she gives me a check and a list and asks us to go for her.
Of course we did and while we were waiting for her film to get developed in the one hour photo we decided to get the 6 items she wanted and get some lunch at mcdonalds.
As I am standing there ordering I begin to feel naucious. I thought maybe it was just becasue I hadn't eaten yet or something.
Well I ate and still didn't feel better. we picked up the pictures, paid and went to Grandma's where I proceeded to loose my lunch more than once. (sorry pretty graphic).
Any way I called in to work sick and we came home where I've been trying to copy a dvd my aunt had made for my grandfather's 70th birthday... to no avail.... I still have no Idea how i''m going to manage this one.

Well we had to kick out my little cat today... he boldly peed on my gym bag today even though the cat box was clean. Ernie decided he was going to have to live outside from now on. Which I have decided is not a bad idea because I discovered he had marked his territory in the middle bedroom! So now I've got to find a way to get rid of the smell before we move so we will be able to hold on to our deposit.

Our landlady is going to help us get into a bigger house so we are thankful for that and I am going to start working on a new "job" from home. I have been checking out my options as we are going to need my income and I really feel like being at home so I can care for my grandmother, children, and spouse is the most important thing.

We could probably survive on one income but we would certainly have to give up alot of things I really don't want to give up.... like my internet and our laptops to which I have grown quite fond of!

Anyway I will begin my new venture while I am still employeed with Sitel and as soon as God sees fit I will give my notice so I can focus on my family and Church. The youth group really needs a lot of focus at this time and I work from home I'll be able to focus on it a whole lot more than if I'm trying to fight with a job that really doesn't want me to focus on anything but the job.

Well It is almost 2am and I need to get some sleep so I can clean my house in the morning... I've neglected it way too long and with having the schedule i've got right now this is my only chance to get anything done.

Keep us in your prayers as we take on the Youth Group and as we get closer to finding our children!
God Bless You!
~G~

Acquire The Fire!!!! 2

Well this weekend went GREAT!

As I last posted we took the youth from our church and some others to Acquire the Fire
in Tulsa this weekend. The message was the best I have heard in years. This generation of youth is the largest in our country's history. They have the best and most technology and they spend the most money. They are also in the most danger!

Parents beware! Your children are being targeted by the media for slaughter!!! 2,000 teens a day commit suicide! 8,000 a day contract an STD! This is appualing!

God was all over that Maybee Center..The amazing thing was that These kids have been being deceived all theire lives by the media and they are finally learning the truth. They are getting a righteous anger and standing up for GOD!! Praise Jesus that we are gettint to be a part of it.

If you have never heard to the work that is being done by Acquire the Fire you should really check it out. As Christian parents we have a responsibility to protect our children and you need to know that the 'worldly' media is targeting your children and they don't care that they are creating a generation that has no moral sense of what is right or wrong. they don't care that these kids are so desensitized that they don't want to live!

WE MUST UNITE AND FIGHT FOR THE LIVES OF OUR CHILDREN!!!!!

PRAY FOR THE TEEN MANIA MINITRY

PLEASE PRAY FOR ERNIE AND I AS WE BEGIN OUR NEW PATH WORKING WITH THE YOUTH GROUP IN OUR CHURCH . PRAY FOR GOD'S GUIDANCE AS WE HELP THEM GROW AND AS WE ADOPT OUR CHILDREN.

LOVE TO ALL AND GOD BLESS!
~G~

Yellow Roses

Here's to T-bone steaks, yellow roses and friendship.

READ THIS!!!! and then reread it. Especially the last part

I walked into the grocery store not particularly interested in buying groceries. I wasn't hungry. The pain of losing my husband of 7 years was still too raw. And this grocery store held so many sweet memories.
He often came with me and almost every time he'd pretend to go off and look for something special. I knew what he was up to. I'd always spot him walking down the aisle with the three yellow roses in his hands. He knew I loved yellow roses. With a heart filled with grief, I only wanted to buy my few items and leave, but even grocery shopping was different since he had passed on.

Shopping for one took time, a little more thought than it had for two. Standing by the meat, I searched for the perfect small steak and remembered how he had loved his steak.
Suddenly a woman came beside me. She was blonde, slim and lovely in a soft green pantsuit. I watched as she picked up a large package of T-bones, dropped them in her basket.. Hesitated, and then put them back. She turned to go and once again reached for the pack of steaks. She saw me watching her and she smiled. "My husband loves T-bones, but honestly, at these prices, I don't know."I swallowed the emotion down my throat and met her pale blue eyes."My husband passed away eight days ago," I told her. Glancing at the package in her hands, I fought to control the tremble in my voice. "Buy him the steaks. And cherish every moment you have together." She shook her head and I saw the emotion in her eyes as she placed the package in her basket and wheeled away.

I turned and pushed my cart across the length of the store to the dairy products. There I stood, trying to decide which size milk I should buy. A Quart, I finally decided and moved on to the ice cream. If nothing else, I could always fix myself an ice cream cone. I placed the ice cream in my cart and looked down the aisle toward the front.

I saw first the green suit, then recognized the pretty lady coming towards me. In her arms she carried a package. On her face was the brightest smile I had ever seen. I would swear a soft halo encircled her blonde hair as she kept walking toward me, her eyes holding mine. As she came c loser, I saw what she held and tears began misting in my eyes.
"These are for you," she said and placed three beautiful long stemmed yellow roses in my arms. "When you go through the line, they will know these are paid for." She leaned over and placed a gentle kiss on my cheek, then smiled again. I wanted to tell her what she'd done, what the roses meant, but still unable to speak, I watched as she walked away as tears clouded my vision.

I looked down at the beautiful roses nestled in the green tissue wrapping and found it almost unreal. How did she know? Suddenly the answer seemed so clear.
I wasn't alone.
Oh, you haven't forgotten me, have you?
I whispered, with tears in my eyes.
He was still with me, and she was his angel.

Every day be thankful for what you have and who you are.

(Please read all of this, it is really nice)This is a simple request. If you appreciate life, send this to your friends, including the person that sent it to you.
Even though I clutch my blanket and growl when the alarm rings. Thank you, Lord, that I can hear. There are many who are deaf.
Even though I keep my eyes closed against the morning light as long as possible. Thank you, Lord, that I can see. Many are blind.
Even though I huddle in my bed and put off rising. Thank you, Lord, that I have the strength to rise. There are many who are bedridden.
Even though the first hour of my day is hectic, when socks are lost, toast is burned, tempers are short, and my children are so loud. Thank you, Lord, for my family. There are many who are lonely.
Even though our breakfast table never looks like the picture in magazines and the menu is at times unbalanced.Thank you, Lord, f or the food we have. There are many who are hungry.
Even though the routine of my job often is monotonous. Thank you, Lord, for the opportunity to work. There are many who have no job.
Even though I grumble and bemoan my fate from day to day and wish my circumstances were not so modest. Thank you, Lord, for life.

Pass this on to the friends you know. It might help a bit to make this world a better place to live, right? A friend is someone we turn to when our spirits need a lift. A friend is someone to treasure. For friendship is a gift. A friend is someone who fills our lives with Beauty, Joy and Grace and makes the world we live in a better and happier place.YOU ARE MY FRIEND!God bless you and yours.Now send this to every friend you have and don't forget me

I sit in tear as I pasted this in tonight. God is amazaing is He not?