Feeling Alone

How can people that live in the same house be so distant? I mean I feel so utterly alone in my own home. Things are no different than they were in Oklahoma when Ernie went to bed I was alone. I hate feeling so alone when I am not. They lock themselves in thier bedroom and completely ignore me. She has done it since he moved here and it drives me crazy. Maybe I really do need therapy. I just know that I feel sooooo lonely and the meds help a little but not alot.

I just know that it is so very hard to face all these feelings on my own and I hate feeling angry and alone. Here lately I've had one friend that still talks to me everyone else seems to have forgotten i exist. Just today I finally talked to D. He has not spoken to me in like a week. I am kinda waiting on him to get his nose out of his stupid videos and talk to me about something meaningful. ......

I don't know maybe I'm starved for attention???!!! I wish I knew what was going on and why I feel so insecure. I don't like feeling like this and I've been praying. I Just know that it is hard to hear God when I feel like I do.

*sigh* I don't know!! I am ready to talk to the therapist, and find out why i'm so neurotic.

~G~