As the night goes on

I begin to think of things that we should try to do. Like go to New Hampshire next year. We have been talking about going to visit Ernie's sister up there for a few years now and have never had the time or money to travel that far. I mean after all we are lucky to get to travel to the far south part of the state to my family reunion each year.

So we have been discussing Elise and I going for a couple of weeks next summer. My sister in law would love that! I know we would have a tremendous time! The first time we spend a lengthy time together we didn't quite agree on things but we are older now and we have gotten to know and love each other and I know we would have a wonderful visit. Ernie only gets a week for vacation and he said that he would not want to just stay for a few days and then come home alone. * doesn't want to fly alone*

any how.... That's what I do at night... Think.... Tonight I've also been contemplating the fact that Ernie may be having to find a new job. I KNOW that God will provide, He always has. It is just that I am trying to fight the doubt that keeps trying to creep up out of my mouth. I know enough not to speak doubt out loud as Satan will try to use it against me.

I believe that as long as we are trying to live in God's will then He will provide our needs. Doesn't he feed the birds? I know my Father in Heaven will keep my family safe and allow my husband to provide for us. He is a good man and Ernie will work at just about anything because he is committed to providing for his family. In fact he told me that he just couldn't understand men who didn't want to be providers, and how they could just let their wives do all the work. I mean don't get me wrong Ernie would love to take a couple of weeks and let me "bring home the bacon" but after that he would get so bored that he'd be looking for a job real quick!

Now because he is such a good husband I try to do little things here at home to let him know that I appreciate him and the hard work he does to give us a home. I cook, clean, do his laundry, and today I even soaked his feet and rubbed them because he had such a hard day!
You see I know that I have to take care of him because he takes care of me. This was a very hard lesson for me to learn and it took me almost 7 years to learn it.
I used to think it was his JOB to provide for me and take care of me and that it didn't matter weather or not I appreciated him or not. He was just supposed to do it. I didn't care if the house was clean when he came home and I didn't always want to cook him dinner * I always did though*.

God dealt with me and thought me that Godly submission was my calling and I fought it! !! Tooth and nail I fought it. I did not want to be a 'Christian door mat' I was thinking NO man is going to tell me what to do!

Well God tells me what to do and respect my husband and Godly mutual submission is what I've learned... I'll tell you more about that later..

Good night and God Bless.