My Heart....

To be quite honest I have not gotten along with my sister Mary for several years now. I love her but we just don't see eye to eye on just about everything. I am 10 years older than her and I have loved her since the first time I saw her through the hospital window in Madill, Oklahoma.

We lived in Kingston at the time and I was in school when mom went into labour durring lunch time. My grandmother came and picked me up from school and we went the 7 miles to Madill to see my new baby sister.
When Mary cam home from the hospital she slept in the room next to mine but I was always getting up to check on her. I would hold her and pretend that she was my baby. I thought she was the cutest baby I had ever seen. I can even remember being afraid of my step father and taking the three little kids in my room and hiding them with me. I was afraid that something bad was going to happen to them.

Years later our family after having gone through several seperations, and bad relationships was finally looking normal and Mary decided she hated me. I don't understand why and some times it doesn't even matter. I miss that sweet little child who used to play hide and seek in the house and boy was she good at hiding. :)
God, I don't understand what is going on right now. All I know is that you are the only person who knows where my baby sister is right now. She's 17 Lord and maybe she's bitter and angry, but Father she is hurting our Mother so badly right now. PLEASE God! don't let anything bad happen to her. Please forgive me for saying the things I said about her deserving whatever she got. I didn't mean it I just want he to understand that life is not going to easy and that she has to take responsibility for her actions. God please protect Mary and Kayla. Please allow my mom to rest and be okay, I'm so worried about her. I know you promise not to give us more than we can bear but Father it seems like so much ! I lay my sister in your hands father and I ask you to comfort my heart! Thank you Jesus for your comfort and for protecting Mary and Kayla. Thank you for your forgivness. Thank you for being with my mother. In Jesus name, ~amen~

My heart is so sad and tired, I don't know what to do. I can feel this weight bering down on me and I'm afraid it is going to affect my family here at home. I really need prayer...

I know several of you are praying and I want to say from the bottom of my heart THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS!
With out God I would not be here today! Praise God from whom all blessing flow!
Merry Christmas all!
~Gidgit~