Yesterday Barb and Sherri got here and things I could tell things were tense and I was not quite sure what was going on. Then today We discovered that Sherri has never healed after the death of her older sister whom her father has repeatedly told Sherri that he wishes wouldn't have died and Sherri should have been the one to die. How fucked up is that??!!!
Sherri says she wants to be with Barb. However, eventhough Barb has repeatedly told her that she must be 100% up front and honest Sherri avoids giving strait answers and seems to be hiding something at all times. This builds mistrust in Barb and Sherri doesn't seem to get this.
I have tried to be mediator which is a usual thing for me.
Today I had my second therapy appointmet and we worked on the anger and control issues. She asked me to become more aware of what it is that triggers my anger and why I feel like I loose control sometimes. She asked what it is that I feel i need to do to be aware of those things.
I really think that having my therapist is going to help me in the long run. I know it helps me to have someone that is totally objective and I don'thave to feel like because they are attached to the drama that they are judging me. I talk to her about all my shit. My trust issues, my anger, control, my sexual issues, and even my friends.
I sometimes feel like such a basket case that I don't know what to do!
Screaming seems to work!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
There, all better now! ;)
Well, More later.
~G~
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