I feel as though I am being tested. I have been dealing with so many different feelings and emotions in the past 3 days I am drained. The meds don't seem to be helping.
I feel like everyone has been watching me as though they are on suicide watch and they need to hide the sharp objects from me !It is sooooooo annoying! In fact it makes me even more annoyed / crazy when they watch me like they have been.
I've just been told that someone I love is dying ! !! How am I supposed to act???!!! Do they expect me to be all happy and joyful? Amy has lost her mother but never her best friend. James has lost his grandmother but not his best friend. Yes it hurts to loose a parent and a grandparent but those usually are not the people with whom you share your most intimate thoughts and feelings! I love Barbara and I don't want to loose her! yes I was distraught! I'm tired, I'm sad, I'm hurting and I know they are concerned but I just want them to STOP LOOKING AT ME!!!!
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